I have seen (recognized) the truth that we know. That when God takes one of His own through to this doorway, where we are knocking.. knocking.... that they have first asked... and He answered by putting them on "the path"; then they have "sought", along this path... and He has enabled them "to find";  What did they find? The door to His Kingdom. 

The path looks like death... for it is death. The path looks like pain... because it is pain. The path looks like fruitlessness... for it is fruitlessness. The path is nothing but the means of purification; the path is merely the means of separating those who will endure the seemingly endless pain and rejection. There are those who will not give up. He is seeking those ones... and no, it is not an elitism... but it is a separation unto the Gospel. Not all are willing to endure the pain that He requires on this path... and it is pain and suffering right up to the time we step through the door.  In fact, the pain and suffering must build up and up... until there is the Energy necessary for the transformation itself.  All the while, the child can do nothing but cry out to God, that his or her faith not fail!  All will be shaken. All is shaken. All is in upheaval. All is chaos. All is suffering.. All is grace! This is the New Creation. 

The child of God who is brought to this state of being can do nothing on their own. They have already learned that they are not to rise up and bring control into their own lives, for they are not their own, they belong to the Creator of the Universe.  They cannot create their own safe refuge in the midst of the chaos... for they have learned that this is another of the *spare yourself* messages of Satan. They do not have an ego left that will rise up and bring order to the chaos.... for this has been crucified with Christ and no longer has that power in them. The Rest that we speak of, is indeed a rest from our own works... for our works have all proved fruitless and without lasting value.

Our works have become repulsive in our eyes.. for they are sown in self-preservation of some sort or another... and they reap only heartache. They are necessary... for the heartache is part of the suffering which become the Glory.. so they are not without merit... but there are those who have now entered His Rest and having nothing within themselves that can rise up to work a refuge for themselves... They are helpless and hopeless without the Lord Himself. This is the state of being at the Rest Stop. It is emptiness in the natural ways of life... for all has proven as Eccles says: All has proven to end in nothingness... all just as the Lord intended it too. We have come to the End of ourselves... and must He must Arise, or we remain dead.

These can do nothing but cry out to God... in the midst of the suffering, the rejection, the misunderstandings, the pain, the loss, the emptiness... They can do NOTHING except cry out to God, that He must come and bring the refuge, the safety, the New Creation World.. His Kingdom Come...

This is the moment of transformation, when the child of God faces the great void, the great emptiness, that he has finally  turned to embrace... his greatest fear... and the Lord God Almighty fills that space with Himself. His Presence becomes all in All... which it was all along, but until the child allowed the suffering to rise to the degree that it must, without recreating his own safe refuge in the midst of it... he cannot step across the threshold of this New Beginning.

This is the entrance into the Golden Field in Martin's dream. This is the moment of transformation into union with God. This is when finally we see all the stored up pain/suffering/rejection... the deferred Victory that we saw it was, one of those days long ago... this is when this very unrequited Love is transformed into the Doorway to the Kingdom. This is when we can, as Jesus did, embrace the pain, knowing it was indeed the necessary "Resurrection Life" which was being placed into us... for this Rising Up, for this new and glorious day... when God becomes our All in All.

This is the moment when we see in the Scripture that Stephen saw the True Reality all around him and he was transformed into God's Son.  This is the moment when as Wurmbrandt saw, there was a new reality that was there in his midst in the middle of the torture and isolation of the prison camp.. he stepped across the threshold into the Kingdom and lived there.  This is the doorway that we have been knocking at... and He has indeed given us the keys to enter. The keys were the suffering... the Keys were partaking of the full Humanity of Jesus... this is the Name of the Pathway of suffering: Humanity.... and this Pathway leads to the doorway of Glory: which is JESUS Himself, filling the all in all... His Kingdom come and us stepping through the doorway into His Kingdom.

I saw it was the picture of the Phoenix rising from the shambles of life... The suffering, the work of the pathway.. completed.. and finally, totally void of any ability to re-create anything of *safety*, this one cries out to God... I can to do nothing about any of this, LORD.. This is YOUR Life, do with it as you please, I cannot... nor will I .... defend myself, one more time... I cannot, nor will I, justify myself, one more time... I cannot, nor will I ... explain myself, one more time... I will remain voiceless like the Lamb led to the slaughter, for the slaughter is the door to the Kingdom, and I see it as such.

I pray Lord, only that, as You said to Peter,... that You will intercede that my faith not fail. I cannot rely upon myself... for my faith will fail, but YOUR faith will not.. and I put my trust in YOU Lord. Hold me close Lord, as the chaos of New Creation happens all around me. I trust YOU. That is all that I can do... all other sources of strength are long gone... nothing else but YOU Lord in the midst of the new creation chaos... There you will be, Lord.. the Peace in the midst of the Pain... coming across the storm and the waves and the winds and the energy.... there you are Lord, walking as a Refuge to lift us up from the depths of death, into this new Life... this Life of Oneness with You.

I stand in the midst of this chaos today... all the years of stored up suffering rising up.. all the years of the unrequited love rising up.. all the years of the reserved-Victory rising up... and I cry out, YES Lord.. may you find Faith in the earth (this bit of clay) as You return to your church.    I love YOU  Jesus and want only You.. I will not re-create anything to protect me, ever again. I rely upon YOU Lord to bring order to this great disorder... and in that "ordering", Your Will be done.

So, dear ones, as you see the suffering being generated upon your lives, rejoice, rejoice... for this is our Redemption!  This is the Doorway to the Kingdom. Rejoice for Jesus is bringing down the last little bit of the rock that we are covered over in... that His New Creation be seen at last. His Son be seen at last.. in those who will not run from the suffering, but trust Him in the midst of it... and allow the suffering to open the door to the Kingdom.

Union is in the suffering.  Hallelujah!
I love you in Jesus!
Linda