...I've realized...
That I dont have to be the most important person in your life all the time. I don't have to talk to you everyday or see you every weekend to stay close. You know how strong the bond between us is. What has broken that? Nothing. Not even when we werent talking for that week or two. I still feel the same closeness that I felt back in the days of 6th grade. I think I am finally coming to the harsh conclusion that we may never be more than friends. Maybe it wasnt meant to be that way. I know as of right now, the 19th of May, 2002, that I dont want to go out with you again (right now anyway). I have mixed emotions in that I know, when we're older, and even when we swear we dont want to be with eachother like that, I'm going to wish I was the one walking down the aisle with you. I cant really explain that feeling too well... I know that we'll always be friends, as much as the big man upstairs likes putting so many obstacles in our way. I love you Jeana, as I know you love me, and that, that is strong enough |
